The Hurt

A sense of paranoia. That's what I have everytime I fall for someone. After a few days or weeks from realizing that I'm in love, I await that moment when the Hurt comes in. I do not know if this is because I've been bad in a past life, or if I'm just insecure. I have conditioned my mind from years back that I will get my Karma sometime. I hurt some people, and I know I'm gonna be hurt too. I've been hurt a lot of times after that. I just don't know when the Hurt is going to end anymore. I'm at the brink of giving up now. I'm in pain. I've been hurt too many times and I don't know if I can take any more. I hope the next girl is going to be the One already. I don't like myself when I become so negative.