Need Advice....

I talked to her last night. She told me she misses me. She told me she wants me to go back home soon. She told me she wants to get married. She told me she wants to have kids. She told me she wants them soon. Do you think she's trying to tell me something?

I told her to nurture what she has now so she might get what she wants. She has a boyfriend now you know. I love her still though. Can you imagine how hard it was for me to stop myself from telling her that again? I've fallen for her over and over.

Things just start working out for me, allowing me to build up hope, that we can be together. Then she disappears. Or she becomes busy. Or she meets someone else. Do you think I should allow myself to fall for her once again? She simply says my name and I end up with my heart in my throat. My heart beats fast just hearing her voice. I know, I am in love. Still. But I shouldn't just keep waiting for her, should I?

I am so good when giving advice to other people, but I can't give myself a single good one.