Is This Love?

Ask me why I'm happy
Let me explain
Love is in my heart
You're there to remain

I don't know what's happening with me now. Am I really falling in love with her? Everything points to the answer "Yes".

How can you miss someone you haven't even met yet? This is the question that started it all. It started with a simple conference chat. We talked, just chit-chat. Two days later, I chatted her up. It was a great conversation. There wasn't much depth in the conversation but we had fun talking to each other. Or at least I did. I talked to her every night after that. Each time we talked, I learned more about her. And the more I learned, the more I felt closer to her. It surprised me that we had many things in common.

I told her not to fall in love with me, and I in turn won't fall for her too. It's funny. We talked and teased each other. I felt good whenever I talked to her. I made her laugh, and her laugh made me happy. And then something happened.. something "magical" as we refer to it.

That night, she was quieter than usual. She had something in her mind, and she started to ask for my opinion about something. I don't want to go into any details, but I gave her a good answer. Plus, I gave her more. I felt that "the friend" was actually her. And before she even told me specifics about the problem, I filled it all in. It surprised me that I did that, and she was shocked. She never thought I would guess it. I didn't think I would either. I just went for what I felt.

We couldn't explain it. I asked her if her heart was beating fast, because mine was. She said yes. We tried to talk a bit about what happened, but everything was a blur. We couldn't put a finger on what just happened.

The next days, we continued talking each night. We shared more and more with each other. Although a bg chunk of the conversations were small talk or just light topics, there are parts where we'd talk about serious stuff. I still surprise her when I read her mind. I can tell what she's thinking most of the time. She didn't have to say a word. I knew what she wanted to tell me. I understood her. Sincerely.

Now that is rare. When two people understand each other like that, I believe there is something special going on between them. There is a special chemistry that is hard to find in people. It was obvious that we liked each other. We were both scared though. We were frightened about what we were feeling.

And we are still... Let's see where this goes....

Love Month

February has always been magical to many people. At that time of the year, lovers show how much they love each other with all the affection they can muster. No holds barred. It's almost like there's a prize to be won for being the sweetest couple.

Then there's also the singles, who take the opportunity to get dates, as almost everyone wants to go out on a date with someone, for fear of being lonely and miserable on that one day in February.

Though most of the celebrations are held mid-month, people find excuses to make the most out of the occasion, so we have post-valentine events until the end of the month.

What I really wanted to write about though, was how my February went. This is the month I started feeling really homesick that I cannot fight the urge to go home anymore. I missed my family and friends, and I missed having someone as well. Now that wasn't supposed to be such a big deal as in my 27 years in this world, I have only had one Valentine's day wherein I had someone who loved me back. And I couldn't hope that this most recent one would be in a relationship, but I did pray to meet "the one" for me.

True enough, I have had the chance to meet a lot of people in the course of that month. Many of the girls I talked to made me smile. All of them have become my friends. There is one girl though, who made my heart beat fast.. who put a lump on my throat.. who made me speechless.. who made me smile with just the mere thought of her.

I wrote a letter once, to someone whom I haven't met yet, addressed to the one God has prepared for me. It seems like this letter was written for her. Can it be? There's only one way to find out, and that is to let destiny run its course and let it take me to wherever this path might lead. It's scary, but I will tread the steps to my destiny, hoping at the end of the road, my lady is waiting for me.